The Truth I've Never Shared

Why I don't do mediumship sessions anymore

“Why did you stop offering medium sessions?”

Someone asked me this at a recent holistic expo. My response was simple.

I said to him, “Do you like attending funerals?”

“No.”

“Why not?” I asked.

“Because they’re depressing,” he replied.

BINGO.

After fifteen years of relaying messages to my clients from their deceased loved ones, I called it quits. I still offer past life appointments and Soul Discovery sessions, but the mediumship aspect is in my rearview mirror… and I’ll never offer that service again.

Nearly 300 people were on my waiting list when I walked away from it… some of whom offered to pay double the cost of the session if I would squeeze them in for an appointment. But for me, it wasn’t about the money. It was about my own mental well-being and pursuing what truly makes me happy. Ultimately, I decided I didn’t want to spend the rest of my life talking about death. I didn’t want to exist within a bubble of grief and sadness while helping my clients cope with loss.

The decision came with mixed emotions. Would those on my waiting list feel disappointed? Was I letting people down? Was I wasting a gift by not making this service available?

Ultimately, my body, mind, and soul decided for me. I had no choice but to walk away from it. The toll that mediumship took on me is hard to convey. Day after day, for all those years, I listened to tens of thousands of stories involving suicide, homicide, drownings, car crashes, heart attacks, freak accidents, and people who lost their battles with cancer. I spent each day watching people cry as they hung on my every word, desperate for proof of an afterlife. Desperate for specific, accurate, and personal messages. The expectations were high. The margin for error was low. And the pressure was unbelievable. After a day’s work, I felt like I’d attended a dozen or more funerals.

A few people told me after their session that they’d planned on taking their own life but decided not to because of the validation and peace of mind I gave them during the appointment. Flattering, yes. But I spent many sleepless nights wondering about the other clients. What if I had an off day? What if someone wasn’t as moved by their experience? What if I was their last hope and failed to “wow” them?

Some nights after coming home, I would nearly vomit from absorbing so much sadness throughout the day. Sleep offered little reprieve as I was plagued by nightmares on a daily basis… worst-case scenarios related to the trauma I’d heard throughout the day. They were often dreams about my own death or losing my loved ones. I’d wake up crying. Or screaming. Or in a cold sweat. Then, I’d go to my office and do it all over again.

Do I miss it? No, not for one second. But I also don’t regret doing it in the first place. It served a purpose and was an important chapter in my life - personally, professionally, and spiritually. I’m grateful for every single one of you who stepped into my office to connect with your departed loved ones. It was my choice to hang in there for so many years, and it was immensely rewarding work. I’ve witnessed miracles. I’ve seen faith restored in the minds and hearts of countless people. I’ve spent thousands of hours bridging the gap between life and the afterlife. And I can honestly say that I don’t just “believe” in Heaven… I KNOW it exists.

In the past six months, I’ve done counseling sessions to cope with second-hand PTSD. My anxiety has subsided. The nightmares now happen once or twice a month as opposed to every single night. I’m so grateful for these improvements and find myself in a fantastic mindset nowadays. I still get calls on a weekly basis from people asking if I’ll do a medium session. My answer is always the same. But these inquiries prompted me to write this article so I could clear the air and explain why I’ve revamped my services. And I hope it doesn’t come across as a “woe is me” type of blog. On the contrary, I’m feeling very grateful for everything I’ve experienced, and I’m excited to see what the future holds.

With my vibration much higher, I’m busier than ever, offering psychic services that I LOVE doing. Soul Discovery sessions fuse together my two passions - giving intuitive insights and writing. I’m now booking into January 2025 with those appointments and I’m staying busy with past life sessions as well. Each day feels like a blessing, a dream come true. Turns out, the Universe had a plan for me all along. I just needed the courage to walk away from something before a new path would open up. It’s surreal, and I can’t help but smile as I write these words. I feel like I’m walking on sunshine *cue the music*

I hope this blog finds you well. Whatever path you’re on, I hope it makes your heart happy. And if it doesn’t, please know there are other options. If you close a door, the Universe will open a window for you. I’m living proof of this truth.

With gratitude,

Andy

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